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(ephemeral)
(ephemeral)
[.l.o.s.t././.i.n././.t.r.a.n.s.l.a.t.i.o.n.]
Greetings from The Republic of the Ninth Moon
F
31 years old
163 cm, 5 ft 4 inches
Chief Executive Officer
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my name is (ephemeral). i spin fire. that's me in the picture. i work in high tech. actually, i run my own high tech company. it's named metacode.i like dark humor. right now i'm in the best relationship of my life, married to a wonderful man i never thought i'd run into again - evilbenfranklin is his user name here, should you be curious. we first met when i was sixteen at a joint rocky horror cast performance in houston (while he was part of the austin cast). i played magenta. go figure. that was the winter of 1995 and we first found each other again in 2004 at apple computers. i have great friends. i've been homeless. i've been to burning man. i've had a car stolen. i've been beaten senseless and unconscious by an abusive 'fiance'. he stole my guinea pig, too. grr. i've burned my way through a huge chunk of my inheritance left to me by my mom when she died in 1995. i have heroes. i have dreams. i have memories. i have things i'd like to forget. i wish i could make it all better for everyone. i have people i'd like to meet. there's no one i idolize. well, other than my husband. i'm thinking about going back to school to become a lawyer. i know. gasp. it scares me, too.i read a lot of non-fiction. stuff most people would never touch - hard science, physics, and psychology. except that i also read stuff like elizabeth wurtzel's more, now, again and mark z. danielewski's house of leaves. i love film, but it's funny because it's been forever since i've been to the movies. and i love music, but i own virtually no cds. i have a blog that i desperately need to update at lostintranslation.blogsome.com
Or . . . with more demographic-ish nformation:
Twenty-nine. Female. Half Puerto Rican. Pale skinned, hazel-eyed, red haired with light freckles. Native Texan. Pyropolis, Burning Man Citizen and Ranger. Semiprofessional Fire performer. Product of chaos. Phoenix. Published writer. Aspiring for more. Groove on good debate. Former Livejournal addict. Mentally different. Living with PTSD. Having fun with Bipolar I. Narcoleptic. Researcher. Spiritual being. Geek. Big sister. Adopted little sister. Terminally honest. Guided by integrity and inspiration. Leader by example. Web genius. Genuine me. Internal minimalist. Weirdness magnet. Recovered anorexic. Loyal to a fault. Seeker of enlightenment. Pisces. Instrument of randomness. First Responder. Believer in justice. Neither left or right brain dominant. Alive - post Steve Jackson Games. A. A. element. Sponsor. Sponsee. Programmer. Blessed with seven best friends. Conferred a circle of close friends. Digging for wisdom. RHCP cast member. Higher Powered. Gripped by desire. Diplomat. Essential oil fanatic. Ethically strong. Driven by a strong moral compass. Honor bound. Entrepreneur. Dreamer and realist. Peeved by hypothyroidism. Organizationally obsessive. Workaholic. Battlestar Galactica connoisseur. Literary junkie. Bassist. Pro-choice. Imperfect: Working on it. Smoker. Journalistically inclined. Graduated summa cum laude in two disciplines: Psychology and Pharmacology. Minored in Biotechnology, Mathematics, and Chemistry. Future firearm owner and concealed carry licenced female of America. Blessed and cursed by Asperger's. Shaken by Absence seizures. Walking musical encyclopedia. Guinea pig guardian. Trained photographer. Jewish-Catholic religious heritage. Buddhist life philosophy. Former member of The 'Crooked E Posse'. Multiply pierced and tattooed. Musician. Caffeine powered. Water cooled. Cephalopod fan. Survivor. Future neuropsychiopharmacologist. Amateur astronomer. 'Cellist. Prone to ranting. Beyond blissfully married. Seeker of truth. Cynical optimist. Believer in Irony as a force of nature. Charismatic. Adrenaline addict. Switch. Not-so-casual observer. Unabashed hedonist. Nudist when able. Social theorist. Armchair philosopher. Free State Project member. Sober five years: Recovered heroin addict. Cuddle slut. Blank book aficionado. Pen collector. Technology guru. Ex-Apple employee. Three Hour Mafia creator. Proud Libertarian. Random Access Memory founder and contributor. Lost in translation.
Human being. Work in progress.
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i'm not sure whether i love or hate plurk.
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see ya soon!
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i think i should go nap or something, at least a short fifteen minute one. after all . . . i capitalized things!!!!
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Mmmm, avocado . . . And we do keep missing each other, but I'll be on for a while. Enjoy your lunching!
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i've missed you, sand. but for a while, i'm really here. :) at least until the call i'm waiting for - which is work related - comes in.
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and you're not the only one in texas where the sun is beaming down like something alien and bright. :)
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multitasking!
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i think i shall try to sleep now. goodnight, all!
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thank you, Kimmy! i love spinning fire, so i'm glad someone out there enjoys my spinning. i wish i could show you in person.
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message 1002 by (ephemeral) carries no implied or stated warranty. batteries not included. void in wisconsin. california cash refund value. limited time offer.
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i feel adrift.
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given the amount of noise out in the parking lot - which is more than enough to break local noise ordinances - and the amount of volume that our neighbors are themselves creating, it will be any wonder if i sleep tonight.
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meh, once again, i miss.
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sand!! greetings! it's good to see you . . . not to mention everyone else. :)
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i can't keep up with it all, but that doesn't mean i stress out about it. if i did, i wouldn't be able to keep my head about me - and lord knows i need to keep my head!
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crazy is as crazy does and crazy thinks.
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the worst thing a person can do is close their eyes and blatantly accept what's going on around them.
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if you fail to feel, you fail to grow.
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". . . if only it were possible." these words lead some to despair and others to imagine, create, and invent.
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explain the change, the difference, between what you want and what you need. there's a key.
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time is an abstract expression.
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from my husband about the argument with my demonologist ex-best friend: "i have to wonder what demon has possessed him. if he took a look at the way he was acting - sans compassion, without reason, lacking morality or ethics - perhaps he would stop and act like a man instead of being the jackass he's acting like."
i wish. i just don't hold out hope for the improbable. and at this point, it's improbable that he'll see beyond the end of his nose because he's so stubborn. sad. ten years of friendship, gone.
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i have to wonder just how many people out there are truly what they say they are.
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greetings, Sirez! i'm sorry that i just now saw that you're logged on. sometimes i can be unobservant.
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sometimes i think my guinea pig is far more intelligent than some of the people i find myself interacting with.
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sleep deprivation: torture method developed by the brain, in the most organic sense of the word, for people, like yours truly, who are bipolar.
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"will wealth be enough"
-kah
is wealth ever enough? if one could have all the money in the world, would it buy happiness, success, and personal satisfaction?
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. . . just an observation, like so many others people here have made, are making, and will continue in the future to make.
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"borrrrring"
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why, yes, you are. you could actually say *something*, start a conversation string, post an insight, or try for real content instead of a trite commentary as such.
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no revolution. maybe someone, somewhere else.
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they make no mention of the beauty of decay.
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grammar: it's your friend.
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from a discussion with a friend: "there's nothing wrong with gun control - as long as gun control means knowing which end of the weapon you're responsible for using, knowing how to use, and use respectfully."
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i truly wish that people who didn't have anything of value to share would learn to simply shut the fuck up.
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people and their perceptions continually manage to amaze me. some do so for their incredible wisdom and insight, others for the extreme narrow minded nature of their point of view and the limits of their intellect.
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Sand! Gragg! people i hold in high esteem whom i'm glad to see still posting here . . . this brings hope.
i've been gone too long. the world has changed - as it always has, is, and will continue to do so with every waking moment. however, by this i mean something more profound has happened, a changing of the guard, if you will. now we shall see what happens.
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greetings, everyone!!
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A moment in to say hello and goodnight and I'm back - all at once, all at once. Such is life, though: It happens to us all at once.
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ya know, real web guru's use text editors anyway :P -Gragg
daaaaaaamn straight!
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if you want to join the discussion group, we're online - though we're still trying to peg down a day and time that's good for everyone. great group, too. everyone's very open-minded and thoughtful.
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'twas actually an apache wildcard issue . . . still, you had good points. :)
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. . . and now i've gotten it to do what i want . . . bwahahahahahahahaha!! there's nothing quite like hard code, ol' fashioned, typed out in notepad or in stickies (for mac users) and then placed just right. XD
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ahhh, gragg! having issues with a subdomain i'm trying to build for a philosophical/religious discussion group i'm a member of and it's not playing nice.
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greetings, gragg! 'tis an early mornin' here . . .
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rjupiter, no worries. :) i just disclose the truth about myself and pretty much anything else i know anything else about . . . sometimes too much. o.O
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Cold weather makes sound carry for miles.
-north sprite
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The guts of the animal life in our oceans are filled with bits of plastic trash.
-A dude in Michigan
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Hello stupid humans..... We are putting too much trash in our oceans.
-A dude in Michigan
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Think we can squeeze a few hundred billion from somewhere for our country's moon Base?
-A dude in Michigan
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see ya soon!
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CAPITAL IDEA !
Later-
-sand
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i think i should go nap or something, at least a short fifteen minute one. after all . . . i capitalized things!!!!
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Mmmm, avocado . . . And we do keep missing each other, but I'll be on for a while. Enjoy your lunching!
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YAY!
we keep missing each other- read the writing on the screen- Before and after.
Lush Avacado- Lunch.
-sand
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i've missed you, sand. but for a while, i'm really here. :) at least until the call i'm waiting for - which is work related - comes in.
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and you're not the only one in texas where the sun is beaming down like something alien and bright. :)
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multitasking!
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EPHEMERAL...are you REALLY facing the screen ?
or Multi Tasking ?
I am in the part of Texas where SUN is Beaming- today....after the 2 a.m. mega storm.
-sand
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i think i shall try to sleep now. goodnight, all!
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thank you, Kimmy! i love spinning fire, so i'm glad someone out there enjoys my spinning. i wish i could show you in person.
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message 1002 by (ephemeral) carries no implied or stated warranty. batteries not included. void in wisconsin. california cash refund value. limited time offer.
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Hi ephemeral :)
Admire your fire spinning skills...
-north sprite
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i feel adrift.
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meh, once again, i miss.
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crazy is as crazy does and crazy thinks.
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sometimes i can be unobservant.
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I remember that about you : )
We made it through IKE- ok...I did.
What is NEW ?
Dare I ask ?
-sand
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the worst thing a person can do is close their eyes and blatantly accept what's going on around them.
-(ephemeral)
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if you fail to feel, you fail to grow.
-(ephemeral)
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". . . if only it were possible." these words lead some to despair and others to imagine, create, and invent.
-(ephemeral)
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explain the change, the difference, between what you want and what you need. there's a key.
-(ephemeral)
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time is an abstract expression.
-(ephemeral)
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from my husband about the argument with my demonologist ex-best friend: "i have to wonder what demon has possessed him. if he took a look at the way he was acting - sans compassion, without reason, lacking morality or ethics - perhaps he would stop and act like a man instead of being the jackass he's acting like."
i wish. i just don't hold out hope for the improbable. and at this point, it's improbable that he'll see beyond the end of his nose because he's so stubborn. sad. ten years of friendship, gone.
-(ephemeral)
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i have to wonder just how many people out there are truly what they say they are.
-(ephemeral)
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sometimes i think my guinea pig is far more intelligent than some of the people i find myself interacting with.
-(ephemeral)
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sleep deprivation: torture method developed by the brain, in the most organic sense of the word, for people, like yours truly, who are bipolar.
-(ephemeral)
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"will wealth be enough"
-kah
is wealth ever enough? if one could have all the money in the world, would it buy happiness, success, and personal satisfaction?
-(ephemeral)
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. . . just an observation, like so many others people here have made, are making, and will continue in the future to make.
-(ephemeral)
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"borrrrring"
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why, yes, you are. you could actually say *something*, start a conversation string, post an insight, or try for real content instead of a trite commentary as such.
-(ephemeral)
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no revolution. maybe someone, somewhere else.
-(ephemeral)
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they make no mention of the beauty of decay.
-(ephemeral)
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grammar: it's your friend.
-(ephemeral)
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from a discussion with a friend: "there's nothing wrong with gun control - as long as gun control means knowing which end of the weapon you're responsible for using, knowing how to use, and use respectfully."
-(ephemeral)
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i truly wish that people who didn't have anything of value to share would learn to simply shut the fuck up.
-(ephemeral)
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people and their perceptions continually manage to amaze me. some do so for their incredible wisdom and insight, others for the extreme narrow minded nature of their point of view and the limits of their intellect.
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The most important job is not to be governor, or first lady in my case.
--George W. Bush
Pella, IA
01/30/2000
as quoted by the San Antonio Express-News
-Gragg
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We are born charming, fresh and spontaneous and must be civilized before we are fit to participate in society.
- Judith Martin
-Gragg
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"Associate yourself with men of good quality if you esteem your own reputation; for 'tis better to be alone than in bad company" - George Washington.
-Gragg
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Any clod can have the facts, but having opinions is an art.
- Charles McCabe
-Gragg
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ya know, real web guru's use text editors anyway :P -Gragg
daaaaaaamn straight!
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Never mind what others do. Do better than yourself, beat your own record from day to day, and you are a success.
William J.H Boetcker
-the_sparrow
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I HATE XMAS.... am i the only one?
all the fake shit happening around
peace on earth, save all...shove it... hypocrits
if you want peace i wouldn't just be the last damned month of the year....
-Aiken
NINE POINTS WHY PEOPLE ON GC NEED TO GROW UP AND WAKE UP
The cause of Christmas is JESUS BIRTH
People love JESUS
COKE MADE SANTA
COMMERCE EVERYWHERE GREW FOR THE BIRTHDAT OF CHRIST
People everywhere lost sight.
Economies must grow and nations must tolerated
Ni more room.
-JimmyEast
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I HATE XMAS.... am i the only one?
all the fake shit happening around
peace on earth, save all...shove it... hypocrits
if you want peace i wouldn't just be the last damned month of the year....
-Aiken
NINE POINTS WHY PEOPLE ON GC NEED TO GROW UP AND WAKE UP
The cause of Christmas is JESUS BIRTH
People love JESUS
COKE MADE SANTA
COMMERCE EVERYWHERE GREW FOR THE BIRTHDAT OF CHRIST
People everywhere lost sight.
Economies must grow and nations must tolerated
Ni more room.
-JimmyEast
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It's up to you like they say.
-JimmyEast
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This site ROCKS! Because I MAKE IT ROCK
-JimmyEast
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I like mens asses. Especially muscular mens' asses. I like a rump that has done some pushing. Labor wise or working out. A firm ass is prime.
-JimmyEast
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And then there were SIX. OK FIVE including me. But no one else is here, except 5 other people. You must be the creme of the crop. You must be the persistant few who will put up with just about anything. You must be an arbitrary number of people looking on that brad input into the database. You must be friends of Anonymous.
-JimmyEast
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Yeah Osama... you can't rile up the world into hysteria
-JimmyEast
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I have great hopes for our future. I see a bright future. Full of intelligence and striving to achieve the betterment of humankind. I see us coming together as one in the future. It's not going to happen overnight or in an instant. Be we have to start somewhere. And people have already started. Get on board the peace train people and spread the good word!!! THE WORD OF US! OF ALL OF US!!!
-JimmyEast
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The Ancients are the Future Humanity that will look on what I have said and judge me. Was I mean? Was I pernicious? Was I spiteful? YES. Did I tell you the truth? Yes except for 3 or 4 occasions where I tripped you up. Was I scared? Is a paranoid schizophrenic with bipolar disorder and a severe case of agoraphobia scared of shit YES. Was I the messiah? What is a messiah? A messenger? then YES. A prophet? of Sorts. A good person? In heart YES. Did I try VERY FUCKING HARD TO TELL YOU TO WAKE UP? YES THanks.
-JimmyEast
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SHHHH SHHHH. No I am not going to throw this away. I covet Anonymous and I love to hate Gnarly. And I think of Brad as a vacuuous entity soaking up knowledge for free. And I think many things of all of you. My message about awareness is key but I don't want to lose that. And I am not afraid of your fucking threats.
-JimmyEast
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I am not going to take shit like that from you
-JimmyEast
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Whoever that was do you want to bring down this whole site and you with it?
-JimmyEast
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That was easy
-JimmyEast
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Your half wit won't save you from the truth Gnarly
-JimmyEast
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Excuse me... but i have got something to say here in response to an old message that popped up here from painkiller... take a bath
-JimmyEast
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Another bowl of fruit loops for the baller frube standing on the shores of infinty please. Put it on my tab, being as he's a ward of The State and speaks with the tounge of the ignorant masses, it is the least I can do. Have fun at your Abrahamic Ho-Down.
-gnarticulation
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You wanna talk about ignorance? now that you sound sheepish... You are way fucking ignorant to be talking on here.
-JimmyEast
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You do not let your imagination fill the gaps of ignorance? You should know all your shit 360x360x360... dear
-JimmyEast
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Glad you have had an inspiring day, James. Maybe you should pen a comic book or better yet, a coloring book for you and your classmates here at the cosmic toddler school on the spool of drool.
-gnarticulation
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It's like pre-school in here.
-gnarticulation
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I do not let my imagination fill in the gaps of my ignorance. I continue to seek with the acceptance that I have to live without knowing. I struggle to become aware of what IS, not what is bubbling up from the remanants of a thorazine trip or a lame attempt at intellectualizing the summed wisdom of all existence. I do not insist that one vision is truth, as a single experience of samadhi can be but a miniscule of the sum. Too many naive folks assume to have the totality at the ready in their minds.
-gnarticulation
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'God' is a term that refers to that which cannot be intellectualized. However, the scale begins much lower for you, as you regularly have trouble intellectualizing complete and rational thoughts regarding simple, testable facets of reality.
-gnarticulation
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I like the sun. I vote for the sun. Without it, everything on this planet dies. Let's start by thanking the sun for all of that radiant heat and light. After that, I'd like to give a shout out to the Earth's atmosphere that protects us from all of that ionizing radiation.
-gnarticulation
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Everything is infinitely divisible and there is no where in space that you can you point to and call it the locus of everything. Once again, fallacy and paradox pervade the 'global conscious'.
-gnarticulation
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Final test Gnarly. What is Everything?
-JimmyEast
Holds up a flower.
-gnarticulation
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He logged in upon the grand digital landscape and behold! There lay before him the textual equivalent of a skipping record.
-gnarticulation
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Gnarly is very thoughtful and aware. She has got to be put through the final test.
-JimmyEast
'Final test'... I cannot wait.
-gnarticulation
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I AM THE BEST FORCE OF DRIVING TRUTH ON THIS SITE. BRAD COME SUCK MY COCK.
-JimmyEast
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When I came to Ottawa Ontario and I stayed at my sister's place on Metcalfe street, I used to sit outside of the apartment building listening to NEW ORDER... my favorite song REGRET... You don't know the circumstances, but I loved a man, and now I lamented. I always knew even then that I would change this WORLD. I LOVE YOU
-JimmyEast
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What are we to do without the TRUTH of what is going on? Speculate? Lie? Make up shit? Tell people stuff that isn't true?
-JimmyEast
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You should be scared of ONE. Scared of what you don't understand. You should be afraid of anyone who speaks of AWARENESS. The place ought to be shuttered up in speculation of WHAT IS TO COME.
-JimmyEast
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You can all see me sitting in front of my computer with the last of my beer smoking a cigarette... typing furiously... IF YOU WERE ALL HERE I'D HAVE LINED UP AND SHOT.
-JimmyEast
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Don't you DARE TURN YOUR BACK ON ME
-JimmyEast
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There is no limit to the new things I can learn and understand
-JimmyEast
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I got a new shower curtain
-JimmyEast
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OK TEST... YOU HAVE A LIFE BOAT and it's FULL. DO YOU LET SOMEONE ELSE ON? A POTENTIAL SURVIVOR? SOMEONE IN NEED? SOMEONE WHO LOOKS GOOD? SOMEONE WHO WOULD GIVE THEIR LIFE TO SAVE THEIR OWN? WOULD YOU LET THEM ON BOARD? EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE FULL?
-JimmyEast
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At this point I am sick of fighting with you and I listen to music that makes me feel assured. I am sick of telling you aren't awake and that you don't care, BUT YOU SHOULD ALL KNOW AT THIS POINT THAT I HAVE OPENNED THE DOORS AND THE FLOODGATES WELL YOU ARE FUCKED.
-JimmyEast
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YOU fucktards don't even aspire to knowledgeable. Not even close. The people that WATCH here are FUCKTARDS.
-JimmyEast
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Some might say that the best way is to revert to an older way of being. Too bad we are too wraped up in the advancements of technology to even figure what the difference is.
-JimmyEast
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Hate is a strong word. It is the antithesis of Love. I hate rich people. I hate the religious right. I hate bigots and I hate LIARS. If I had my way I would sweep them all up. NO MORE CONDITIONS OF SURVIVAL.
-JimmyEast
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I AM NOT DONE WITH YOU FOR THIS AFTERNOON
-JimmyEast
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Forget all the jocks and the princesses on this site. ASK YOURSELF WHAT DID JAMES EASTON TELL YOU?
-JimmyEast
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WAKE UP DAY ARRIVES EARLY!!! FAITHFUL BUMP INTO TREES!!! APPLES FALL ON HEADS!!! RECEIVE NEW STORY ABOUT GARDEN!!!
-We Are Not Equal
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CHRISTIANS SECRETLY MOVE TO FILL VACANCY!!! CONSIDER WHITE ELEPHANT AS REPLACEMENT!!!
-We Are Not Equal
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CHRISTIANS IN DENIAL!!! SAY CANADIAN CHRIST A FAKE!!! CLAIM NO WAY MESSIAH WOULD BE CANADIAN!!!
-We Are Not Equal
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