All I've ever really tried to do here, is get you to listen. I've been harsh and I've been friendly in kind. All I want you to do is wake up. That was my mission: the moment in my greatest insanity I screamed out to my neighbourhood to WAKE UP. Forgive me for my very real need to make people aware. I've been put in a hospital twice for my role in trying to wake you up, and I won't go through that again. I'll never forget Richard's screams at night, and the first time the night nurse gave me Ativan to quiet me so I could sleep. I'll never go back there. Not as long as I am sane.
I've tried very hard by repeating the words "WAKE UP" for you all to get my meaning, but after a time, repeated, the words seem to mean nothing. The waking part is the recognition that all is not as it seems, and furthurmore realizing that there is a greater purpose, than cook, cleaner, assembly line worker, or mother, or so on and so forth. I knew long ago that things were going to change but little did I realize how much. My time with you has been a complete evolution. I've unloaded all kinds of stuff on you. Hoping in the least that you might get it somehow. I've named dates. October 8 2010 and of course December 21 2012... All in hopes that the time would come for people to wake up on a mass scale. All the time hoping that the people I spent time with would get me. That this Whole GLOBAL CONSCIOUSNESS thing would WAKE THE FUCK UP to a new day. That people would be aware and would care.
I don't need to spell out the disasters that will happen AGAIN. I've laid myself out again and again, and over time, people become less and less concerned. If GC were the place to be to tell it all like it is, I DID. And I know a lot of other GCers did too. What left is there to say? Should I repeat myself so I can be discredited by someone who doesn't care like I do? Should I just stop? The problem really is that I've unloaded everything, and I have nothing new to say. I may not be as equipt to rattle on against protagonists. Why argue? The truth is there. I've said it. Other people say it. I feel like I've lost my place here. I miss the days when there were hundreds of spectators and 30 people chatting. Did that ever happen? I've had to back down and say I am sorry for my harsh criticisms, and beligerent tongue. I've been told that telling people to wake up incessantly is at least annoying and cause for people to leave. In spite of it all, I still feel in my heart the noble cause, but my time here is out.
I've left before and I will again, and this time, I am leaving for good. "I'm leaving for good".... Never thought of it that way. Funny what life brings you. I am leaving for good but I will return to you, for there has never been a more exciting and fun time than sharing with you.
God I love God
Peace, Love and Light.
May the Force be with you
Wake your Spirit, and STAY AWAKE...
Sincerely,
James